Well it clearly has been an awfully long time since I last updated, so long that the background of my blog changed without my help. I don't know what all that is about but at least I am finally writing something right?
So for anyone who didn't know, which would be odd because of the few people who read this I'm pretty sure you all should know by now, I have been in Arizona for the last month and a half spending some quality time with the family getting my footing before I move to New York.
This summer has been very relaxing, a quick run down of things that I have done:
- auditioned for So You Think You Can Dance
- discovered I can't dance hip hop
- spent a week with the whole family in Montana
- traveled to Sedona for a day with David
- put on a graduation recital
This is depressing, that is about all that I can come up with in terms of major things I did. However I have been keeping myself plenty busy and I can't say that I have been bored. The point of coming home this summer was partly to clear my mind and unwind, so it appears that I have done just that.
About halfway through yesterday I started becoming very reflective, as those close to me know I do from time to time, I have to imagine that it was brought on by my imminent departure from Arizona and the cruel introduction to the real world (of New York) I have to look forward to. Time just really seems to slip away from me, and I always fear that I don't live in the moment as I would wish to, so when I come to the ending of any chapter of my life I sit reflecting on the time that has passed and I tend to get a little sad.
I think this is pretty natural, I can't be the only person in the world who gets sad about the passing of time, there are just too many famous cultural references for me to disillusion myself (ie captain hook, always running away from time) I also think it teaches me to strive to appreciate everything that life hands me. I do have a history of going through rough patches in life, or even downright horrible personal experiences and then look back on them with fondness.
I have also this summer had a real desire to create. I believe that one always needs to have hobbies, otherwise life can get awfully boring, and my passion has always been art and creation, however the way I create is through the work of others. Singing their music/lyrics, discovering an emotional world through the words of others, I have never really been one to write. I clearly dabble in writing from time to time, and this summer I also started trying my hand at composing.
I successfully wrote one song, which I am pretty happy about and I have been playing it constantly-it just needs words now. But I think that I want to start writing a bit again. I have an extremely active imagination and so I have had ideas that I have wanted to put down for a long time, I just never really get around to it. Mostly because I just don't know how to start.
Obviously it has to start with an idea, and I have had "an idea" before, and from then you have to prep. I personally believe before I begin I need to decide what it is that I want to create, what story I want to tell and why I want to tell it. I have an idea that I am working on right now and I have started plotting it out for myself, where the story starts, where it goes and how we get to the end, and the reason I'm excited about this idea is because it's reaching into the relm of fantasy. I live in a fantasy world, and lord knows it is my favorite genre of all entertainment media, so it only makes sense that I should see what I can do with this story.
I also (again) feel that I need to start writing more, anything just as long as I am writing. To start with I think I need to start journaling again, I really stopped that around sophomore year, and I always really liked it. I think if I am able to find a coffee shop near my apartment it woul be the perfect retreat for me to jot down ideas and thoughts as they come to me on a (hopefully) daily basis.
Well I am off to a baseball game with my padre. I hope everyone has been having a wonderful summer, and I will be back with more later.